Originally I had planned to write about something positive today. Right when starting into this day I had the feeling about it would become some special day today. Not sure why, it was just the feeling I had ….

Later on a few things (work issues) happend, showing me that a few things I had start to influence weeks, not to say months, ago, now seems to work out in a way I wanted them to take. Not the usual stuff, really things being able to influence future positive.

Anyway, I wouldn’t be myself, in case I wouldn’t had started to feel curious about "too much" things working out well at the same time!  ….and then right at the moment when I nearly started to believe in (not being able to see any negative) …. I found out about I really had messed up something today …. finally and unrecoverable …. no chance to repair it …. just gone!

I’m so grumpy with myself, I can’t tell!